heatwave – Behind These Bluest Eyes

I went to my consultant appointment this morning in high spirits. Dominic being back at work really does reduce some stress for me and he is being lovely at the minute. I was asked about my mood and I said that I was completely fine. I do have a phone consultation tomorrow afternoon for counselling and I need to be as honest as possible. The 3rd year medical student commented that I am clearly in tune with my mood and that is a good thing. Today I’ve felt fed up and miserable …. I’m in tune with my mood yes but I can’t even explain why I felt like this. Hot, fat and bothered I think.

Baby is doing well, she’s measuring bigger again still but nothing to be concerned about. The scan today said an EDC of 31/08/2016 … My actual date is 11/09/16 and even that was brought forward at original dating scan! I’m hoping it’s a sign she will come early and not hang about in there. She’s head down too which is good but potentially another back to back labour like my eldest. Ouch!

Luckily I haven’t had any of the ‘enjoy it whilst you can‘ or ‘get your sleep in now‘ comments. I’m guessing it’s only first time mums that people try and use those lines with. Sorry guys but I don’t sleep now (too fucking hot, always need a wee or wake with cramp) and what the hell is there to enjoy? I do also have a 7 year old that requires my attention. In fact feeling this swollen, and out of breath I worry I will actually do less with her over these summer holidays. I have no plans for day trips, nothing that involves walking too much that’s for sure and we may stay in ALOT. Today was last day of year 3, can’t believe how we are here already. I am also very thankful for getting lay ins in the morning now and no more school waddles !

I made a promise yesterday I would be more careful with what I’m eating. I drank about 4 pints of water today, I need to keep that up. My bread intake was high though and that is something I will definitely stop when baby is here.

Breakfast – (which was at 4am) 1 slice of toast

Lunch– Pate on some French stick (yes I know .. PATE! Naughty me)

Dinner– bbq food with salad & rice with 2 burgers in rolls .. Yes TWO!

Supper – 3 crackers & cheese with Branston pickle

Snacks – nectarine, cherries and 2 lemonade ice lollies

Head hurts now and struggling to keep eyes open. I will wake with a positive mental attitude … I will!

OMG !! I cannot cope. Walking from the car to the school is like a military operation and the chafing on my inner thighs is actually a real problem.

I miss my toned long legs .. They have been replaced by thighs that have dimples and knees that look like elephant knees!! I think it reached 33 degrees today, stupidily uncomfortable for someone who is 32 weeks pregnant. I used baby powder to ease the chafing, it helped slightly. My underwear is uncomfortable too! I do feel I need to have some damage control now! 7 weeks left and I cannot get any bigger ! Bump is ok yes .. But legs and arms .. No! It’s uncomfortable and unattractive! I have been a bit reckless recently .. Like 3 cookies today ! WHOOPS!

I sat in my underwear with the fan on me whilst looking at how gorgeous my man is and thought ‘how the fuck does he still fancy me’ .. He doesn’t go a day without calling me beautiful .. I wish I felt it! As beautiful as a rhino!!

Tomorrow is healthy eating/limit on junk mission. I have another scan tomorrow too, can’t wait to see how big she is now.

I’ve not wrote as much this week. I got my uni results last Friday and they were worse than expected .. I knew I still had to do ‘well’ in my final project to receive that commendation I had been working towards. However after the results I worked out I basically have to do ‘super well’ now. Pissed off with myself for letting things get in the way this year , pissed off I had ‘just want to pass’ attitude and pissed off that Dominic doesn’t take any responsibility. Hey ho such is life and he did say he is proud of me no matter what. Like many have also said how most would have probably dropped uni with everything I dealt with too so should be proud.

I had some good news though and my tutor worked out I need to get 69% rather than the 73% I initially thought. I can do that! I need to do that! Or else I will forever let it get to me that I didn’t receive that commendation.

Well .. Think I may have a snack before tomorrow is here. I will blog my food diary and it won’t include 3 Cadbury flakes in a row .. No.. No it won’t! (That was last Friday)

Tag: heatwave

Current Mood: Meh

‘I love a good heatwave’ .. Said no pregnant woman ever!