So I may be sad I don't have my little family this Christmas but I have something real! No chaos, no hurtfulness, no lies, no deceit and he can play victim all he likes but this is ALL his fault!
The alcohol made me sick
.. so so sick! I wasn't even out long either and I came home to throw up everywhere. Gosh what a mess! Luckily I had plans today with my nieces birthday but now it's evening and I'm sat on my own I am struggling with these emotions. I have such an urge to speak to... Continue Reading →
Control
It's only 9:30am but I do have the urge to write. We all had a lovely lay in this morning and are all still in our pyjamas. I will get us all ready soon so I can go out and finish my Christmas shopping! So my urge to write is after a conversation with someone... Continue Reading →
On reflection
Today was my last working day of the year. I am so thankful for the amazing business I am part of. The director is open and honest in the fact she believes she has a great team and 2018 will be an amazing year for all of us. I am lucky that they know what... Continue Reading →
Time management..
I believe it's a skill that I don't have the hang of very well. I'm laying in bed flicking between my social media platforms, staring at the most recent book I'm reading for personal development, a printed copy of my book so far laying next to it and my business law text book is on... Continue Reading →
Who has the answers?
I'm not sure anyone does in how to combat domestic abuse in households but I sure as hell know we have more chance at doing so with the help of domestic abuse survivors than those who have never experienced it. I have a friend who works for social services, very knowledgeable on the subject but... Continue Reading →
Focus and succeed
I feel shattered, I feel lonely and I feel sad. I miss him. The nice him. I resent him. The devil him! I just can't get it out my head. The healing process is rough! My presentation didn't go exactly the way I would have liked where I got a little emotional and cut out... Continue Reading →
Tomorrow is the day
When I booked this presentation at a networking meeting I felt incredibly nervous. Now it's the night before I feel completely fine. I know what I am talking about, it's something I feel incredibly passionate about it and in fact I am quite excited. I want to do some final notes tonight just for structure... Continue Reading →
This time last year
Really bad week this week, like a weird crazy emotion in my head. I keep imagining being hit by a man, a different man to my ex. I imagine and feel how that would feel, then I remember the times I was hit for real. The most recent time was one of the worst, hit... Continue Reading →
What is wrong with people?
So on Monday I'm presenting on the importance of boundaries yet I still have to question where the hell mine are! I bought myself an iPad today, my mum put towards it and I've done the right thing. Not opened it up yet. I got my girls some matching Christmas pyjamas today too and that's... Continue Reading →
Behind These Bluest Eyes 