If you've been following my story you will know I was successful in getting a Non Molestation Order on my ex back in October 2017. He was served the order beginning of November and it was serving his purpose as he moved away and left me alone... fully. On 20th November we had our return... Continue Reading →
There was a post from a lady on one of the domestic abuse groups I'm in. I could so relate "I've told him it's over, but he's in prison and he's ringing me telling me he loves me and he will change." Been there done that! The way the do it is soooo convincing. Every... Continue Reading →
Oops I did it again …
.... I signed up to the half marathon in September! This time no one can get in the way of my training. It did actually pop into my head earlier about how unreliable he was. "Baby I got you, were a team, you are my world. 100% I will be there in the morning so... Continue Reading →
What ifs ..
Once again I fell asleep in the evening and have woke up feeling meh. I've been awake an hour and I've just been feeling really negative. So I need to switch that up! The negatives is of course him, and also the thinking of 'what ifs'. I would never ever wish my daughter away, I... Continue Reading →
Back to reality!
Omg it hurt. It was dark when I woke, and I felt so tired all day. I have won at no caffeine ✅ but my steps are low - less than 5,000 ! Bad! I need to get back to loving the gym. It's hard when it's so dark, and so so cold. I have... Continue Reading →
Preparation, plan, focus!
I've only just started writing in my 2018 diary, transferring the stuff over from my old one to my new one. Today hasn't been as structured as I would have liked. I slept until late and before I knew it it was 2pm. I have applied for an extension on my essays, I'm hoping I... Continue Reading →
My 2018 New Years Resolutions
So here we are 1st January 2018, a fun night was had and today as been a major 'not giving a damn day.' (I haven't even brushed my hair) Anyways I aim to set some resolutions and to make me accountable I am listing them in this blog. Cut out caffeine/Drink more water - I... Continue Reading →
Goodbye 2017 ..
I know that New year New me stuff can be seen as a cliche, but for me this year ... It is definitely more than that. I say goodbye to 2017 feeling pretty darn positive. I literally have 6 dresses to decide from, my beautiful daughters by my side, I will be spending the evening... Continue Reading →
As good a time as any!
Usually people wait till the1st January to do things they have planned to do different in the new year but time is of the essence I will say!
Monday 25th December 2017
I look back in time at me! I can see me, crying, hurt, broken and so so confused. I want to inject me with self worth, I want to tell me that I was never ever ever the problem, it was always him.