Food! Food right now is a problem. I dropped weight when it was all going on, pain and anxiety puts me off food completely. This stress however has sent me the other way. The need to focus on something other than everything he put me through I turn to food! Auto pilot, hand to mouth,... Continue Reading →
What is a Bullet Journal?
When I first was told about this concept I took one look at it and thought WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL. However that was when the link just took me to pages and pages of codes and words that I didn't quite understand! That was until I found Pinterest. Wow! The idea of all those pretty... Continue Reading →
As good a time as any!
Usually people wait till the1st January to do things they have planned to do different in the new year but time is of the essence I will say!
Monday 25th December 2017
I look back in time at me! I can see me, crying, hurt, broken and so so confused. I want to inject me with self worth, I want to tell me that I was never ever ever the problem, it was always him.
It's only 9:30am but I do have the urge to write. We all had a lovely lay in this morning and are all still in our pyjamas. I will get us all ready soon so I can go out and finish my Christmas shopping! So my urge to write is after a conversation with someone... Continue Reading →
Today was my last working day of the year. I am so thankful for the amazing business I am part of. The director is open and honest in the fact she believes she has a great team and 2018 will be an amazing year for all of us. I am lucky that they know what... Continue Reading →
This time last year
Really bad week this week, like a weird crazy emotion in my head. I keep imagining being hit by a man, a different man to my ex. I imagine and feel how that would feel, then I remember the times I was hit for real. The most recent time was one of the worst, hit... Continue Reading →
What is wrong with people?
So on Monday I'm presenting on the importance of boundaries yet I still have to question where the hell mine are! I bought myself an iPad today, my mum put towards it and I've done the right thing. Not opened it up yet. I got my girls some matching Christmas pyjamas today too and that's... Continue Reading →
Never good enough
...this is how I feel. This is how I felt pre abuse too. People like me are like gold mines for people like him. Low self esteem, low self worth, easy to get entangled inside our minds. I've had no iPhone all week and now it's gone off for repair. I have a replacement now... Continue Reading →
Working on me
Obviously the meme is a joke but I do really need to get myself back in the gym! Realistically it will probably be new year now but I am going to focus on making small changes until then. When I go through all that stress I barely eat then when I feel relatively content again... Continue Reading →