There was a post from a lady on one of the domestic abuse groups I'm in. I could so relate "I've told him it's over, but he's in prison and he's ringing me telling me he loves me and he will change." Been there done that! The way the do it is soooo convincing. Every... Continue Reading →
Oops I did it again …
.... I signed up to the half marathon in September! This time no one can get in the way of my training. It did actually pop into my head earlier about how unreliable he was. "Baby I got you, were a team, you are my world. 100% I will be there in the morning so... Continue Reading →
Monday 25th December 2017
I look back in time at me! I can see me, crying, hurt, broken and so so confused. I want to inject me with self worth, I want to tell me that I was never ever ever the problem, it was always him.
Too much wasted time
Self development is so important and I realise that more and more everyday. No matter the industry you work in you should always do a bit of personal development. A networking meeting I went to this morning spoke of this and also a few other areas that I really want to apply in my life... Continue Reading →
They do more harm than good…
... in some situations. Like I don't want to knock the whole service as I completely understand how over stretched and over worked they are but in my case and for my family they have done absolutely nothing. They have been completely no benefit at all. Social Services! The scary thing is I spoke up,... Continue Reading →
A letter to my ex ..
I know deep down you wanted everything you promised to be, but there is something so innately toxic and negative about everything you do, that your promises and love was never ever sustainable. You'll do everything you could to blame me, but I wasn't to blame I never was.
Focus on the Freedom!
This time it’s going to happen! I have changed my number. I have the police coming round this evening and an injunction is in the process of being served. This is done! The past 5-6 weeks have been very much like my last post. My head has been done for a very long time but... Continue Reading →
4 months on!
So it has been 4 months since my last post. I had almost forgot about my blog, maybe I tried to forget everything that was in it. In denial... telling myself 'that didn't happen' kind of situation. But I am now truly in a place where I want to reach out to other women who... Continue Reading →
My ‘love’ back behind bars !
Took the police 5 weeks to catch up with him. 5 weeks!! I warned him he needed to do it before we had our social services meeting, despite his promises he just didn't. Scared he was going to jail he told me. I did not think it would come to that! Just did not. I... Continue Reading →
Argggghhhhhhhhh….
Day 3 without seeing him, why am I feeling crazy?? I've done this before .. ! Woke up this morning feeling sad, just wanted to call him. I told myself I needed to go the whole day.. Then he calls. For fuck sake! He misses me, he's gone too far this time, he isn't giving... Continue Reading →
Behind These Bluest Eyes 