My experiences in an abusive relationship taught me a lot, it taught me to trust my gut, protect my heart and sadly rightly or wrongly have that guard up when meeting a new man. When I first met this one back in July 2018, he was a bit of an overlap with my ex. I... Continue Reading →

Weekends are easier for me, I don’t usually do much weekends anyway. The only thing different for me really is football... although I did have a night out planned for next Saturday. That’s upsetting. I am so thankful I actually have work to do and can work from home and not everyday is like this.... Continue Reading →

.. and that he is! I feel angry with myself if I am honest. I saw the signs, chose to ignore them, figured he would actually tell me the truth since he always did before, and was adamant I wasn’t interested in him ‘like that’s but I am angry and need to write. The ‘friend’... Continue Reading →

Yesterday was Monday and the first day of 'home schooling', it went ok. I got quite a bit of work done but it was stressful at times. Somehow my garden looks like a tip (due to the kids emptying the shed) and I had to lay down some rules. I had my niece as planned... Continue Reading →

I could get quite used to being able to blog in the morning. Usually it has always been the evening (or the middle of the night when I have been unable to sleep). I got a little over 5 hours sleep. No alarm needed and like clock work I wake at 6am. It's a Sunday... Continue Reading →

How am I going to get through these times I ask myself. I go from feeling like 'everything is going to be ok, it's an adventure, it's an experience.. it's just different and we can adapt' ... to thinking .. how will I cope? I have no normality. I had been feeling very low coming... Continue Reading →