Tonight I had a notification that my blog had got some interest, it prompted me to write again. I read back on the old few posts and my God it is clear how manipulative, narcissistic and truly fake the man was that I spent the majority of 2020 focused on. What a waste of time.... Continue Reading →
Being authentically me ..
That’s what I have done today. It was a bad day today, I haven’t cried but I have so desperately wanted to reach out to him and just say .. I miss you. I absolutely know I don’t want him romantically but it’s just not me to be so angry. I found the letter I... Continue Reading →
Our love story ended in a block..
As part of my 'getting out there 2020 plan' I decided to go on another date. This one, we spoke consistently for 10 days or so. I was a bit stand-off ish to begin with but I really started to feel him. We spoke about all sorts and the conversation flowed well. I wasn't sure... Continue Reading →
You couldn’t write this stuff!
If you've been following my story you will know I was successful in getting a Non Molestation Order on my ex back in October 2017. He was served the order beginning of November and it was serving his purpose as he moved away and left me alone... fully. On 20th November we had our return... Continue Reading →
Food is not love!
Food! Food right now is a problem. I dropped weight when it was all going on, pain and anxiety puts me off food completely. This stress however has sent me the other way. The need to focus on something other than everything he put me through I turn to food! Auto pilot, hand to mouth,... Continue Reading →
What is a Bullet Journal?
When I first was told about this concept I took one look at it and thought WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL. However that was when the link just took me to pages and pages of codes and words that I didn't quite understand! That was until I found Pinterest. Wow! The idea of all those pretty... Continue Reading →
Going public .. Facebook live number 2!
As I've said before I used to hide behind my blog, I was so ashamed and didn't really understand what was going on. I felt like no one would understand and no one would believe me. It was just a mad mess of manipulation! Since going more public with the hope to help women going... Continue Reading →
My 2018 New Years Resolutions
So here we are 1st January 2018, a fun night was had and today as been a major 'not giving a damn day.' (I haven't even brushed my hair) Anyways I aim to set some resolutions and to make me accountable I am listing them in this blog. Cut out caffeine/Drink more water - I... Continue Reading →
As good a time as any!
Usually people wait till the1st January to do things they have planned to do different in the new year but time is of the essence I will say!
Monday 25th December 2017
I look back in time at me! I can see me, crying, hurt, broken and so so confused. I want to inject me with self worth, I want to tell me that I was never ever ever the problem, it was always him.
Behind These Bluest Eyes 