Once again I fell asleep in the evening and have woke up feeling meh. I've been awake an hour and I've just been feeling really negative. So I need to switch that up! The negatives is of course him, and also the thinking of 'what ifs'. I would never ever wish my daughter away, I... Continue Reading →
Back to reality!
Omg it hurt. It was dark when I woke, and I felt so tired all day. I have won at no caffeine ✅ but my steps are low - less than 5,000 ! Bad! I need to get back to loving the gym. It's hard when it's so dark, and so so cold. I have... Continue Reading →
Preparation, plan, focus!
I've only just started writing in my 2018 diary, transferring the stuff over from my old one to my new one. Today hasn't been as structured as I would have liked. I slept until late and before I knew it it was 2pm. I have applied for an extension on my essays, I'm hoping I... Continue Reading →
My 2018 New Years Resolutions
So here we are 1st January 2018, a fun night was had and today as been a major 'not giving a damn day.' (I haven't even brushed my hair) Anyways I aim to set some resolutions and to make me accountable I am listing them in this blog. Cut out caffeine/Drink more water - I... Continue Reading →
Goodbye 2017 ..
I know that New year New me stuff can be seen as a cliche, but for me this year ... It is definitely more than that. I say goodbye to 2017 feeling pretty darn positive. I literally have 6 dresses to decide from, my beautiful daughters by my side, I will be spending the evening... Continue Reading →
Too much wasted time
Self development is so important and I realise that more and more everyday. No matter the industry you work in you should always do a bit of personal development. A networking meeting I went to this morning spoke of this and also a few other areas that I really want to apply in my life... Continue Reading →
Starting to feel at peace
There has been times where I have dredded the weekends. Even when he was half in my life, the chaos and loneliness was mad. I definitely felt more lonely when he was in my life than now he isn't. I speak to M on the phone every evening and I have another for company too.... Continue Reading →
A letter to my ex ..
I know deep down you wanted everything you promised to be, but there is something so innately toxic and negative about everything you do, that your promises and love was never ever sustainable. You'll do everything you could to blame me, but I wasn't to blame I never was.
Escaping from Pathological Liars…
The most damaging of all the abuse is the lies. Every one tells small white lies but a pathological liar will tell a lie even when the truth isn’t something that would get him into trouble
Getting there ..
Last night I couldn't believe the difference a week had made. I saw him yesterday but I stayed very strong. The week before I was still waiting on him to move heaven on earth for me after yet another cheating episode. Then when it got to the evening and I knew he went back to... Continue Reading →