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Day 2 sickness 

imageToday has been awful and I can only hope that tomorrow is better. Obviously I wrote mid afternoon yesterday after I had realised what a dumbarse I had been with making my juices but I still felt ok. Evening struck and I realised I could no way stomach the purple thing (Ruby Tuesday) knowing the pineapple skin was in it. Instead I had some fruit. Then the 7pm juice I managed half. Dominic the forever supporting boyfriend drank what I couldn’t, even knowing about the pineapple skin, bless him. My sickness began after the half of juice and at around 11pm I was sick. Gross! Although hardly anything came up of course. I knew I needed something a little substantial before bed for any chance of juicing today, so I finished the evening on a strip of mackerel. Strange I know but curbed the sickness.

I woke today and thought about a glass full of greens, it made me shudder !! I not only still felt sick but also very weak. The school run was a chore and as I was due in for work at 12pm I knew I had to try and get rid of this sickness. More mackerel then! It helped for a while but the thought of work filled me with fear. Luckily I managed to swap my shift today so I could get through day 2 pretty much glued to my bed. Now I say day 2 but it hasn’t been really, I’ve gone off the ‘juice cleanse’ plan but I have still eaten clean and minimal. I can barely stomach much anyway. Chicken breast and veg for tea, figured if I’m not juicing it I still best eat it.

I hope the sickness is gone by tomorrow, but I also hope my appetite stays away.

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Enough is Enough… 

imageDespite getting myself to the gym every morning and completing a small run I still was not getting anywhere fast. I know tiny steps are best but when I gained this weight in such a short space of time, I want it gone in equally a short space of time. I found myself still constantly hungry and making bad food choices and just not able to put the God damn food down!!

SO… I planned last week after recommendation from my sister to do a juice detox. Now she’s managed to lose weight using this fancy Ninja device that cost her just short of £100 in the January sale. Fair play to her, she’s in love with it and has either a juice or a soup for breakfast and lunch then an evening meal keeping within 1000 calories for her day. I don’t want to calorie count or restrict myself so much, I want to be back to how I was and stop needing to eat everything in sight!! So … I purchased a juicer , less than £30 which wasn’t bad and purchased an app which promises me amazing results. Jason Vale 5 day juice challenge, and then by Saturday  I can wear that size 8 dress out for my friends birthday that I wore just before Christmas. It’s on!!

Sunday is a strange day to start BUT after Friday I knew it had to be sooner rather than later, my eating is out of control like I’m gaining DAILY over here!

This morning I made all my juices ready for the day. Veggie Power and Ruby Tuesday. Well I thought the first one was bad but Ruby Tuesday was just something else. Jason Vale says it’s one of the nicest, well I’m doing something wrong because there was nothing nice about pineapple, carrots, raw beetroot, raw ginger and basil! I downed it in one, and I’ve got the privilege of having to drink another one of each before the day is over! Determined though! So determined.

…..And so I just realised what maybe could have made it taste so wrong, I was meant to peel the pineapple. 🙈 What a tit!

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Easing myself in .. 

Tuesday, Wednesday AND Thursday this week I ran for an average of 20 minutes. Well I say ran, it wasn’t a full 20 min run, it was 1 min running, 1 min fast walking. Like my app told me. It did something though I could feel it the next day, just goes to show how out of it I am at the moment. 

Today the app told me to brisk walk 1.6km, i smashed that due to a leafleting job I was on. I can’t believe how many hills I had to climb either. In total I covered a 12km distance and fully deserved my tea of chicken and rice. 

I’m trying to fight the urge to not go to the shop. My craving for Dr Pepper is insane right now. I can’t wait for these cravings to stop. Sunday I am leafleting again so it justifies the fact I cannot get to the gym all weekend. Next week diet must be better!!

  

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A social media rant 

Snapchat and Instagram, social media sites that when used properly can be fun, light-hearted and enjoyable but once again this evening the cousin has made my blood boil. This time on snapchat, man is doing videos of his cash saying ‘look at all his money’… It probs looks about £300. £400 tops!! Does he not realise in the grand scheme of things that isn’t a great deal?! Like if I didn’t have a mortgage to pay and a flat to run I would be laughing. It’s called being an adult! Having bills to pay and a flat I can call mine is far more important than having a few quid in my pocket. Last I heard he worked at KFC but with no responsibilities (as he doesn’t pay for his kids) I can see why he got a little excited over some paper. Jeez. The man is so stupid. Well I say man, nothing grown up about that boy. I know what he’s doing too, making out like its ‘trap money’, the silly little boy couldn’t run a vegetable patch let alone trap on the streets like life is some rap song. I need him as far away from my man as possible. Embarrassing. Time I removed him! 

Today I worked for a GPS sports watch brand, and now I need one in my life. If I get accepted into the marathon I Defo need to purchase one. At about £140 though they are not cheap but I see it as an investment and as I was once spending that on a PT per month this is well worth it. 

1767 calories today, no run but I did walk over 11,000 steps at work so I have been active. No studying tonight, too tired. There’s still time yet though, maybe something relatively straight forward like Occupiers liability. Must keep up the momentum! 

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1 Saturday down , 5 to go ..

.. Until I am able to go out and party!! I have my little girl tonight anyway so wouldn’t have gone out tonight but tomorrow could have been a possibility. Craving a good night out so bad!! 

1,818 calories today, had a Chinese with my mini me but counted it correctly. I didn’t snack at all today and that makes such a big difference in your calories, they soon add up. I was under on the fat and sugars content too. I didn’t manage to go for that run this morning, woke up feeling so groggy as I have been doing for a while now. More water, more water a must and back drinking my herbal teas I once got into a good routine with. 

I bought a new cream today and at nearly £10 (and that was half price) it wasn’t cheap. Nip + fab tummy fix it’s called, the reviews look good and after I stood in my underwear in front of the mirror at the sunbed shop I realised how bad the tummy situation is. I took a photo, not brave enough to upload yet but I will do if I get a good picture in a month or so to compare it. Will let you know if it works. I know it’s pretty natural to have stretch marks and excess skin after a pregnancy and especially for someone like me who has lost over 6 stone but to me it just looks weird. Not natural at all. I did get into a good shape last year and it began to look better but I was having a personal trainer then, I am hoping I can do it again without one. 

It’s 1:40am, I did my usual of having a late evening kip to study more effectively. It works yet my body clock is all over the place. Proud of what I have achieved tonight tho. Tomorrow I am working again, cinema date with my daughter then I will pick a different topic to get my teeth into. I’ve got this!!

65 days till Ibiza !! 

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Foooooood!!!

so 2,500 calories consumed, with a 40 minute continuous run (which I am proud of) and about a 1/4 of the day studying the Human Rights Act! I am getting there, kinda, slowly! Far more calories than I would have liked and most of the extras was sugar that I just do not need in my diet. All my running is making me loads more hungry plus I’m due on next week so this week is the devil week for wanting allll the food. Other girls can relate right?! 

My run is a positive defo, some inconsistencies with the distance, the treadmill and my app both said different but meet in the middle and it was about 6k and I didn’t stop once! Woo! 

Studying, I did well earlier but this evening has been the same routine of wasting time. An hour phone conversation with my sister and what’sapp pinging me with my friends telling me of their dramas. The friend I’ve spoke of previously who also has a man in jail and had been seeing someone else received a letter from him today. He ended it! In a letter!! Like what?! Now I know I do not know the ins and outs but that seems so harsh, especially considering she felt she couldn’t end it whilst he’s banged up in there. Their story is completely different to ours she was his co-defendant, they been together 5 years, split up, had different partners then got back together last year whilst he was inside. She then seemed to me like they were madly in love if anything more so than me at times, and now it’s all over. We were getting through this journey together with the same release dates and now I’ve lost her but hey. I can do this. On my own. 

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Day 2 and somewhat calmer .. 

I have calmed down, I should give him the benefit of the doubt really after all I’m going by a stupid Instagram post and knowing his cousin he just wants to show off. Although not quite sure what there is to show off about ‘trap money’ but hey. This being said I will talk to him about it of course but I cannot ignore what he has said to me, he wants a real job, a real career, a real family and his days of being on the streets are long gone. I guess I just fear the worst but can you blame me?

On a positive note I have decided to run the London marathon next year, well I have applied anyway, fingers crossed my chosen charity accepts me. It is a massive challenge but it is something I have always wanted to do and what better than to do it the year I am 30. The year my life has a new beginning with my soul mate home. 

Today I have consumed 1,330 calories, I did 8k earlier on the treadmill. Well it was interval training but believe me it put me through a right sweat. 1 minute brisk walk 1 minute sprint for 56 minutes. Determined to beat my 1hr 12 mins for this years 10k Race for Life. All this sexual frustration is coming to some use in my running 😉