Snapchat and Instagram, social media sites that when used properly can be fun, light-hearted and enjoyable but once again this evening the cousin has made my blood boil. This time on snapchat, man is doing videos of his cash saying 'look at all his money'... It probs looks about £300. £400 tops!! Does he not... Continue Reading →
1 Saturday down , 5 to go ..
.. Until I am able to go out and party!! I have my little girl tonight anyway so wouldn't have gone out tonight but tomorrow could have been a possibility. Craving a good night out so bad!! 1,818 calories today, had a Chinese with my mini me but counted it correctly. I didn't snack at all... Continue Reading →
So it’s May ..
The fifth month of the year... I just need to get to the twelfth month and this empty lonely feeling will have gone. This time last year I knew he was going, I knew my life was about to change. I need to feel comfort in the fact that it's now all in the past and... Continue Reading →
I feel so sad …
I need to snap out of this. I have already napped for a while. These exams won't revise themselves! BBC Question Time is just making me angry, and I keep thinking about sweets to make me feel slightly happy. I miss him, I miss him so much. A year ago today was when he was arrested.... Continue Reading →
Foooooood!!!
so 2,500 calories consumed, with a 40 minute continuous run (which I am proud of) and about a 1/4 of the day studying the Human Rights Act! I am getting there, kinda, slowly! Far more calories than I would have liked and most of the extras was sugar that I just do not need in... Continue Reading →
Day 4 and in need of a plan …
... So it's 4 weeks to exams, I have quite a lot of work booked in and also training for the 10k Race for life.I have just had a meeting with my personal tutor (very late in the year) but the action plan section we had to think about got me thinking about how action... Continue Reading →
Day 3 .. 69 days till Ibiza
I woke up feeling shattered, going to bed now feeling shattered and it's only 8:30pm. I did a 1k run just after the school run thinking it is at least something and means less time wasted in a gym. My legs are still aching from yesterday and it didn't go well. Been really hungry today and... Continue Reading →
Day 2 and somewhat calmer ..
I have calmed down, I should give him the benefit of the doubt really after all I'm going by a stupid Instagram post and knowing his cousin he just wants to show off. Although not quite sure what there is to show off about 'trap money' but hey. This being said I will talk to... Continue Reading →
I can’t deal with life today ..
The PVB Blues have hit me. I could do with a day in bed, away from the world. I definitely do not feel like I want to go to work. I am sat in McDonald's with a coffee and have 7 minutes until I need to be in store. The breakfast snack wrap made me... Continue Reading →
My heart behind bars…
The phone just kept ringing, well that was when I actually managed to get through. The engaged tone was constant and the phone just screamed call failed. 100 attempts and I was starting to think 'how much, can I really cope with?' , 'is this going to be my life moving forward?' ... My brain... Continue Reading →
Behind These Bluest Eyes 