Took the police 5 weeks to catch up with him. 5 weeks!! I warned him he needed to do it before we had our social services meeting, despite his promises he just didn't. Scared he was going to jail he told me. I did not think it would come to that! Just did not. I... Continue Reading →
How am I feeling?
The question on all my friends and families lips right now... how do you answer such a question when each hour my feelings change so much ? I feel weak, then remind myself what he's put me through and realise weak I am definitely not. My world was falling apart when my baby was just... Continue Reading →
I was desperate
So many emotions , so little calories consumed and many tears. He did come home after day 6, denying he was at the girls house. He came in at 2am, I stuck to my word and did not succumb to his sorrys and pleas. I would not fall for it again and have sex with... Continue Reading →
Tiny steps ..
After a lazy morning just blogging, merging my two blogs and reading over the old posts I've made I totally feel like Dominic should read them. Especially the ones of when he was inside. He could see how I was always saying 'he was the one' , how in love I was, how at times... Continue Reading →
A new start ?
I failed in waiting for him to call, Sunday blues came and the sadness took over me. I couldn't understand how someone who was so involved in my life can literally walk away without a second thought. He responded to my text by saying I had told him not to call me but he would... Continue Reading →
A social media rant
Snapchat and Instagram, social media sites that when used properly can be fun, light-hearted and enjoyable but once again this evening the cousin has made my blood boil. This time on snapchat, man is doing videos of his cash saying 'look at all his money'... It probs looks about £300. £400 tops!! Does he not... Continue Reading →
1 Saturday down , 5 to go ..
.. Until I am able to go out and party!! I have my little girl tonight anyway so wouldn't have gone out tonight but tomorrow could have been a possibility. Craving a good night out so bad!! 1,818 calories today, had a Chinese with my mini me but counted it correctly. I didn't snack at all... Continue Reading →
so 2,500 calories consumed, with a 40 minute continuous run (which I am proud of) and about a 1/4 of the day studying the Human Rights Act! I am getting there, kinda, slowly! Far more calories than I would have liked and most of the extras was sugar that I just do not need in... Continue Reading →
Day 3 .. 69 days till Ibiza
I woke up feeling shattered, going to bed now feeling shattered and it's only 8:30pm. I did a 1k run just after the school run thinking it is at least something and means less time wasted in a gym. My legs are still aching from yesterday and it didn't go well. Been really hungry today and... Continue Reading →
I’m so angry !!
Seriously! So angry! He can tell me what he likes but let's face it I have absolutely no idea what he tells others. The number of times he assures me he's cutting people out his life and how shit is going to change, how the events that have previously occurred due to his illegal activity... Continue Reading →