The question on all my friends and families lips right now... how do you answer such a question when each hour my feelings change so much ? I feel weak, then remind myself what he's put me through and realise weak I am definitely not. My world was falling apart when my baby was just... Continue Reading →
I was desperate
So many emotions , so little calories consumed and many tears. He did come home after day 6, denying he was at the girls house. He came in at 2am, I stuck to my word and did not succumb to his sorrys and pleas. I would not fall for it again and have sex with... Continue Reading →
A new start ?
I failed in waiting for him to call, Sunday blues came and the sadness took over me. I couldn't understand how someone who was so involved in my life can literally walk away without a second thought. He responded to my text by saying I had told him not to call me but he would... Continue Reading →
A social media rant
Snapchat and Instagram, social media sites that when used properly can be fun, light-hearted and enjoyable but once again this evening the cousin has made my blood boil. This time on snapchat, man is doing videos of his cash saying 'look at all his money'... It probs looks about £300. £400 tops!! Does he not... Continue Reading →
I feel so sad …
I need to snap out of this. I have already napped for a while. These exams won't revise themselves! BBC Question Time is just making me angry, and I keep thinking about sweets to make me feel slightly happy. I miss him, I miss him so much. A year ago today was when he was arrested.... Continue Reading →
I’m so angry !!
Seriously! So angry! He can tell me what he likes but let's face it I have absolutely no idea what he tells others. The number of times he assures me he's cutting people out his life and how shit is going to change, how the events that have previously occurred due to his illegal activity... Continue Reading →
I have written stories, journal articles, notes, diaries since as long as I can remember, as I have already mentioned in a previous post. I have expressed already in this blog. I want to write a book. This blog is missing quite a bit of what happened before he was sentenced and a book needs a... Continue Reading →
My heart behind bars…
The phone just kept ringing, well that was when I actually managed to get through. The engaged tone was constant and the phone just screamed call failed. 100 attempts and I was starting to think 'how much, can I really cope with?' , 'is this going to be my life moving forward?' ... My brain... Continue Reading →