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A social media rant 

Posted on by KerryLouise

Snapchat and Instagram, social media sites that when used properly can be fun, light-hearted and enjoyable but once again this evening the cousin has made my blood boil. This time on snapchat, man is doing videos of his cash saying ‘look at all his money’… It probs looks about £300. £400 tops!! Does he not realise in the grand scheme of things that isn’t a great deal?! Like if I didn’t have a mortgage to pay and a flat to run I would be laughing. It’s called being an adult! Having bills to pay and a flat I can call mine is far more important than having a few quid in my pocket. Last I heard he worked at KFC but with no responsibilities (as he doesn’t pay for his kids) I can see why he got a little excited over some paper. Jeez. The man is so stupid. Well I say man, nothing grown up about that boy. I know what he’s doing too, making out like its ‘trap money’, the silly little boy couldn’t run a vegetable patch let alone trap on the streets like life is some rap song. I need him as far away from my man as possible. Embarrassing. Time I removed him! 

Today I worked for a GPS sports watch brand, and now I need one in my life. If I get accepted into the marathon I Defo need to purchase one. At about £140 though they are not cheap but I see it as an investment and as I was once spending that on a PT per month this is well worth it. 

1767 calories today, no run but I did walk over 11,000 steps at work so I have been active. No studying tonight, too tired. There’s still time yet though, maybe something relatively straight forward like Occupiers liability. Must keep up the momentum! 

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1 Saturday down , 5 to go ..

Posted on by KerryLouise

.. Until I am able to go out and party!! I have my little girl tonight anyway so wouldn’t have gone out tonight but tomorrow could have been a possibility. Craving a good night out so bad!! 

1,818 calories today, had a Chinese with my mini me but counted it correctly. I didn’t snack at all today and that makes such a big difference in your calories, they soon add up. I was under on the fat and sugars content too. I didn’t manage to go for that run this morning, woke up feeling so groggy as I have been doing for a while now. More water, more water a must and back drinking my herbal teas I once got into a good routine with. 

I bought a new cream today and at nearly £10 (and that was half price) it wasn’t cheap. Nip + fab tummy fix it’s called, the reviews look good and after I stood in my underwear in front of the mirror at the sunbed shop I realised how bad the tummy situation is. I took a photo, not brave enough to upload yet but I will do if I get a good picture in a month or so to compare it. Will let you know if it works. I know it’s pretty natural to have stretch marks and excess skin after a pregnancy and especially for someone like me who has lost over 6 stone but to me it just looks weird. Not natural at all. I did get into a good shape last year and it began to look better but I was having a personal trainer then, I am hoping I can do it again without one. 

It’s 1:40am, I did my usual of having a late evening kip to study more effectively. It works yet my body clock is all over the place. Proud of what I have achieved tonight tho. Tomorrow I am working again, cinema date with my daughter then I will pick a different topic to get my teeth into. I’ve got this!!

65 days till Ibiza !! 

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So it’s May .. 

Posted on by KerryLouise

The fifth month of the year… I just need to get to the twelfth month and this empty lonely feeling will have gone. 

This time last year I knew he was going, I knew my life was about to change. I need to feel comfort in the fact that it’s now all in the past and the time is ticking and it will end! 

Now let’s get through May! 

May challenges: 

lose 5lbs 

Study at least 1 hour a day , 3 hours on days I’m not working 

No more wasting calories on junk food 

Run 100k (using Nike plus) 

Been to the cinema tonight, been home over an hour and I have just laid in bed wasting time, as per! Revision timetable is going to be planned now and then more Human Rights revision. 

1,845 calories consumed and I was slightly over on fat and sugars but that’s ok. I didn’t eat any ‘junk’ which is my collective word in May for chocolate, crisps, sweets and your obvious crap that most of us consume daily. I think the sugar was high in my diet today due to the smoothie I had which was yummy! So whatevs.

I ran 4k in 23 mins 37 seconds this morning, my plan is for tomorrow an early morning run at the gym and complete the 6.4k the nikeplus app is telling me to do. 

May I’m ready …. Kinda! 

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Foooooood!!!

Posted on by KerryLouise

so 2,500 calories consumed, with a 40 minute continuous run (which I am proud of) and about a 1/4 of the day studying the Human Rights Act! I am getting there, kinda, slowly! Far more calories than I would have liked and most of the extras was sugar that I just do not need in my diet. All my running is making me loads more hungry plus I’m due on next week so this week is the devil week for wanting allll the food. Other girls can relate right?! 

My run is a positive defo, some inconsistencies with the distance, the treadmill and my app both said different but meet in the middle and it was about 6k and I didn’t stop once! Woo! 

Studying, I did well earlier but this evening has been the same routine of wasting time. An hour phone conversation with my sister and what’sapp pinging me with my friends telling me of their dramas. The friend I’ve spoke of previously who also has a man in jail and had been seeing someone else received a letter from him today. He ended it! In a letter!! Like what?! Now I know I do not know the ins and outs but that seems so harsh, especially considering she felt she couldn’t end it whilst he’s banged up in there. Their story is completely different to ours she was his co-defendant, they been together 5 years, split up, had different partners then got back together last year whilst he was inside. She then seemed to me like they were madly in love if anything more so than me at times, and now it’s all over. We were getting through this journey together with the same release dates and now I’ve lost her but hey. I can do this. On my own. 

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Day 4 and in need of a plan …

Posted on by KerryLouise

… So it’s 4 weeks to exams, I have quite a lot of work booked in and also training for the 10k Race for life.

I have just had a meeting with my personal tutor (very late in the year) but the action plan section we had to think about got me thinking about how action plans can be a very good idea not only academically but also in real life. Tonight I shall plan a revision timetable for the next 4 weeks. 

I went over 2,000 calories yesterday the co co pops got the better of me and although today I am not eating badly I know this evening potentially a chippy is on the cards. As long as I don’t over eat right? My relationship with food can be  just like that , my mentality of ‘diet starts tomorrow, eat all the food’ has happened far too much in the past and ironically the times I have lost the most weight and felt the best have been times I have trained ALOT and not focused too hard on the word ‘diet’. My fitness pal is great for that, just making me a little bit more conscious of what I am eating and how much. I was getting into the habit again of thinking I had ate a lot in one day, “so let’s just eat some more” when in reality I really hadn’t. 

The truth is I am already feeling loads better, my legs are back to looking slim and if I turn to my side and breathe in 😉 I know I can get there. Basically what I am saying is, if I want chocolate I am going to eat it. Revision and sugar free is just too much, plus I have 4 weeks after exams finish before Ibiza when I can focus more on nutrition. 

The more I think about the marathon the more I hope I am successful it getting a place. I have ALOT to work on but I am prepared for that challenge. 

… Right lecture time 

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Day 3 .. 69 days till Ibiza

Posted on by KerryLouise

I woke up feeling shattered, going to bed now feeling shattered and it’s only 8:30pm. I did a 1k run just after the school run thinking it is at least something and means less time wasted in a gym. My legs are still aching from yesterday and it didn’t go well. 

Been really hungry today and eaten 1’530 calories. I can hear the co co pops talking to me from the cupboard too, it’s inevitable that a bowel of those will be consumed. Argh I don’t want to feel this tired, I wanted to do some more revision tonight, it’s hard at the best of times let alone when I am feeling so tired. 

Anyway my boy called me early this morning. That hasn’t happened in months, it’s almost like he knew I needed to speak to him. See soul mates. He said he had had a really vivid dream and he needed to hear my voice, I do still like those unpredictable phone calls. I spoke of my concerns and his response was as I expected, and I now feel a little stupid for getting so irate over a comment his stupid cousin put on social media. He had only 5 minutes this morning but he called back later in the afternoon. He wants a future, proper stability, as I knew. I told him how I just get scared about the future and how I could end up back in the same situation once again. He understood and then admitted he gets scared everyday that I could get taken from him. By someone with more money, more stability, better educated etc. I hear that but I am glad he has some insecurities anyway. 

Anyway co co pops are calling ….