This time it’s going to happen! I have changed my number. I have the police coming round this evening and an injunction is in the process of being served. This is done! The past 5-6 weeks have been very much like my last post. My head has been done for a very long time but... Continue Reading →
4 months on!
So it has been 4 months since my last post. I had almost forgot about my blog, maybe I tried to forget everything that was in it. In denial... telling myself 'that didn't happen' kind of situation. But I am now truly in a place where I want to reach out to other women who... Continue Reading →
Getting there ..
Last night I couldn't believe the difference a week had made. I saw him yesterday but I stayed very strong. The week before I was still waiting on him to move heaven on earth for me after yet another cheating episode. Then when it got to the evening and I knew he went back to... Continue Reading →
A day without crying ?
I woke up yesterday with a sickness bug. I hate being sick. I hate it even more when I have no one around me to take care of me. It made me feel emotional, I couldn't believe it was now entering the fourth day without contact with the ex. How was he feeling?! Does he... Continue Reading →
How am I feeling?
The question on all my friends and families lips right now... how do you answer such a question when each hour my feelings change so much ? I feel weak, then remind myself what he's put me through and realise weak I am definitely not. My world was falling apart when my baby was just... Continue Reading →
Woke up at my friends house and felt quite strong. I think it surprised her and we spoke about it. I agreed that him not having anyone made it easier but equally I've learnt from the last time! I went home about midday and I was greeted by the vile character again. Moaning how I... Continue Reading →
It needs to be goodbye …
In just little over a week I've managed to put myself through more heartache and stress. I just knew getting rid of his clothes would some how come back like it's my fault.Even said I should never have chucked him out in the first place as that's why it went wrong. I've at times felt... Continue Reading →
So it’s May ..
The fifth month of the year... I just need to get to the twelfth month and this empty lonely feeling will have gone. This time last year I knew he was going, I knew my life was about to change. I need to feel comfort in the fact that it's now all in the past and... Continue Reading →
I feel so sad …
I need to snap out of this. I have already napped for a while. These exams won't revise themselves! BBC Question Time is just making me angry, and I keep thinking about sweets to make me feel slightly happy. I miss him, I miss him so much. A year ago today was when he was arrested.... Continue Reading →
I feel much happier today, far more positive regarding uni. Exams are so close and yesterday I was questioning whether it's actually something I am even capable of. Of course it is! What a silly thought!!Well my weekend... Hmmm... Well!! I worked all day Saturday then did a hostessing shift early evening. That ended and... Continue Reading →