Food! Food right now is a problem. I dropped weight when it was all going on, pain and anxiety puts me off food completely. This stress however has sent me the other way. The need to focus on something other than everything he put me through I turn to food! Auto pilot, hand to mouth,... Continue Reading →
As I've said before I used to hide behind my blog, I was so ashamed and didn't really understand what was going on. I felt like no one would understand and no one would believe me. It was just a mad mess of manipulation! Since going more public with the hope to help women going... Continue Reading →
So here we are 1st January 2018, a fun night was had and today as been a major 'not giving a damn day.' (I haven't even brushed my hair) Anyways I aim to set some resolutions and to make me accountable I am listing them in this blog. Cut out caffeine/Drink more water - I... Continue Reading →
Usually people wait till the1st January to do things they have planned to do different in the new year but time is of the essence I will say!
I look back in time at me! I can see me, crying, hurt, broken and so so confused. I want to inject me with self worth, I want to tell me that I was never ever ever the problem, it was always him.
It's only 9:30am but I do have the urge to write. We all had a lovely lay in this morning and are all still in our pyjamas. I will get us all ready soon so I can go out and finish my Christmas shopping! So my urge to write is after a conversation with someone... Continue Reading →
Today was my last working day of the year. I am so thankful for the amazing business I am part of. The director is open and honest in the fact she believes she has a great team and 2018 will be an amazing year for all of us. I am lucky that they know what... Continue Reading →
I feel shattered, I feel lonely and I feel sad. I miss him. The nice him. I resent him. The devil him! I just can't get it out my head. The healing process is rough! My presentation didn't go exactly the way I would have liked where I got a little emotional and cut out... Continue Reading →
Really bad week this week, like a weird crazy emotion in my head. I keep imagining being hit by a man, a different man to my ex. I imagine and feel how that would feel, then I remember the times I was hit for real. The most recent time was one of the worst, hit... Continue Reading →