I went to bed last night at 10pm so this post had to wait until this morning. I woke up yesterday still thinking about it, of course I will. He's been in my life far too long and we've been through far too much to give up. I went over old blog posts and his... Continue Reading →
Baby’s first cinema trip
My little cutie went to the cinema for the first time today. Good as gold as per usual. My sister had to change a very explosive nappy though and she did feed on both boobs. She's still a little angel. Her daddy text in the afternoon asking how we both were. He said he wasn't... Continue Reading →
Baby had her first bottle 🍼
It hasn't been an easy decision and I did ignore the health visitors advice for a week. The breastfeeding gurus on Monday told me to just feed more but realistically with this current set up it's pretty impossible. I don't have the support a woman needs who wants to exclusively breastfeed, I still get pain... Continue Reading →
Baby’s first hospital trip
It's pretty scary for mother to see blood in your baby's sick as you can imagine ! I first called NHS direct at 3:45 am on Monday morning. What a surprise Dominic wasn't contactable. We went for lunch on Sunday as planned and we ended up being together for like 8 hours. It's one thing... Continue Reading →
With a new day comes new strength and new thoughts ..
Saturday morning and I woke up feeling sad. Baby just 3 weeks old and her daddy isn't around. I felt like I just wanted to him home, I wanted him there to have family time in our bed. Enjoy our new baby together. I felt just shit. On Friday he told me he wanted to... Continue Reading →
My baby is 3 weeks old !
Today my baby is 3 weeks old , she is so alert and everyone who sees her can't get over how beautiful she is. This makes me sad that her own father is missing out on this joy. I woke up feeling low again. More disappointed that he hasn't attempted to find out how she... Continue Reading →
I don't even know where to start .. but I need to get this down in my blog. Admitting what has gone on to the world is my next step in acceptance. Accepting he is never going to change, accepting he just isn't the man I thought he was and accepting I am not getting... Continue Reading →
2 weeks old ❤️
My beautiful baby is now 2 weeks old. She is on a whole an absolute angel. Broken sleep is hard going but 'touchwood' each night I usually get at least a 4 hour sleep period. Monday night she didn't settle until 5:30am I was an absolute zombie and everytime I heard from Dominic 'babe she... Continue Reading →