A day without crying ? 

I woke up yesterday with a sickness bug. I hate being sick. I hate it even more when I have no one around me to take care of me. It made me feel emotional, I couldn't believe it was now entering the fourth day without contact with the ex. How was he feeling?! Does he... Continue Reading →

How am I feeling? 

The question on all my friends and families lips right now... how do you answer such a question when each hour my feelings change so much ? I feel weak, then remind myself what he's put me through and realise weak I am definitely not. My world was falling apart when my baby was just... Continue Reading →

Diet time! 

I I really need my confidence back, I need my body back. This picture shows how much confidence I did have. I did well for a week and then I kind of went off plan. I'm about to go serious now though ..  20 days until my birthday and my first proper night out! If I haven't... Continue Reading →

Ready for day 3

Ok day 1 went , soup, chicken and fruit! Then day 2 was fruit, meal replacement and a jacket potato. I did have a sweetie lolly and a Dr Pepper too tho 🙈!  We had a Halloween get together at my friends house. It was nice to have Dom there, I'm still feeling a little... Continue Reading →

It needs to be goodbye …

In just little over a week I've managed to put myself through more heartache and stress. I just knew getting rid of his clothes would some how come back like it's my fault.Even said I should never have chucked him out in the first place as that's why it went wrong. I've at times felt... Continue Reading →

Baby had her first bottle 🍼

It hasn't been an easy decision and I did ignore the health visitors advice for a week. The breastfeeding gurus on Monday told me to just feed more but realistically with this current set up it's pretty impossible. I don't have the support a woman needs who wants to exclusively breastfeed, I still get pain... Continue Reading →

Baby’s first hospital trip 

It's pretty scary for mother to see blood in your baby's sick as you can imagine ! I first called NHS direct at 3:45 am on Monday morning. What a surprise Dominic wasn't contactable. We went for lunch on Sunday as planned and we ended up being together for like 8 hours. It's one thing... Continue Reading →

My baby is 3 weeks old ! 

Today my baby is 3 weeks old , she is so alert and everyone who sees her can't get over how beautiful she is. This makes me sad that her own father is missing out on this joy.  I woke up feeling low again. More disappointed that he hasn't attempted to find out how she... Continue Reading →

Acceptance … 

I don't even know where to start .. but I need to get this down in my blog. Admitting what has gone on to the world is my next step in acceptance. Accepting he is never going to change, accepting he just isn't the man I thought he was and accepting I am not getting... Continue Reading →

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