I've only just started writing in my 2018 diary, transferring the stuff over from my old one to my new one. Today hasn't been as structured as I would have liked. I slept until late and before I knew it it was 2pm. I have applied for an extension on my essays, I'm hoping I... Continue Reading →
Goodbye 2017 ..
I know that New year New me stuff can be seen as a cliche, but for me this year ... It is definitely more than that. I say goodbye to 2017 feeling pretty darn positive. I literally have 6 dresses to decide from, my beautiful daughters by my side, I will be spending the evening... Continue Reading →
Too much wasted time
Self development is so important and I realise that more and more everyday. No matter the industry you work in you should always do a bit of personal development. A networking meeting I went to this morning spoke of this and also a few other areas that I really want to apply in my life... Continue Reading →
They do more harm than good…
... in some situations. Like I don't want to knock the whole service as I completely understand how over stretched and over worked they are but in my case and for my family they have done absolutely nothing. They have been completely no benefit at all. Social Services! The scary thing is I spoke up,... Continue Reading →
Getting there ..
Last night I couldn't believe the difference a week had made. I saw him yesterday but I stayed very strong. The week before I was still waiting on him to move heaven on earth for me after yet another cheating episode. Then when it got to the evening and I knew he went back to... Continue Reading →
A day without crying ?
I woke up yesterday with a sickness bug. I hate being sick. I hate it even more when I have no one around me to take care of me. It made me feel emotional, I couldn't believe it was now entering the fourth day without contact with the ex. How was he feeling?! Does he... Continue Reading →
How am I feeling?
The question on all my friends and families lips right now... how do you answer such a question when each hour my feelings change so much ? I feel weak, then remind myself what he's put me through and realise weak I am definitely not. My world was falling apart when my baby was just... Continue Reading →
Day 5
Woke up at my friends house and felt quite strong. I think it surprised her and we spoke about it. I agreed that him not having anyone made it easier but equally I've learnt from the last time! I went home about midday and I was greeted by the vile character again. Moaning how I... Continue Reading →
Day 2
Successful day on plan. Amazed that I got on the scales for the first time since before my birthday and I had actually lost a pound. Not going to lie that helped greatly with my mood. Calories I consumed today was 1540 which is still under target according to my Fitbit. Exercise needs to be... Continue Reading →
Day 1
Not blogged in a while, but that doesn't mean nothing has happened. I've had many more failed diet attempts and quite a few more rows in my relationship. Today life has gone semi back to normal after the Christmas and New Year hype and it's about time I combatted this weight properly and for good! ... Continue Reading →
Behind These Bluest Eyes 