Baby’s first cinema trip 

My little cutie went to the cinema for the first time today. Good as gold as per usual. My sister had to change a very explosive nappy though and she did feed on both boobs. She's still a little angel.  Her daddy text in the afternoon asking how we both were. He said he wasn't... Continue Reading →

Tiny steps ..

After a lazy morning just blogging, merging my two blogs and reading over the old posts I've made I totally feel like Dominic should read them. Especially the ones of when he was inside. He could see how I was always saying 'he was the one' , how in love I was, how at times... Continue Reading →

Baby had her first bottle 🍼

It hasn't been an easy decision and I did ignore the health visitors advice for a week. The breastfeeding gurus on Monday told me to just feed more but realistically with this current set up it's pretty impossible. I don't have the support a woman needs who wants to exclusively breastfeed, I still get pain... Continue Reading →

Baby’s first hospital trip 

It's pretty scary for mother to see blood in your baby's sick as you can imagine ! I first called NHS direct at 3:45 am on Monday morning. What a surprise Dominic wasn't contactable. We went for lunch on Sunday as planned and we ended up being together for like 8 hours. It's one thing... Continue Reading →

My baby is 3 weeks old ! 

Today my baby is 3 weeks old , she is so alert and everyone who sees her can't get over how beautiful she is. This makes me sad that her own father is missing out on this joy.  I woke up feeling low again. More disappointed that he hasn't attempted to find out how she... Continue Reading →

Acceptance … 

I don't even know where to start .. but I need to get this down in my blog. Admitting what has gone on to the world is my next step in acceptance. Accepting he is never going to change, accepting he just isn't the man I thought he was and accepting I am not getting... Continue Reading →

ONE WEEK TO GO!!!

I go from wanting her here like ASAP to being ok about there still being time left. I am getting the odd tightenings but nothing major still. I went for breakfast this morning with two other pregnant women, we spoke about men and their dealings with pregnant women. On a whole yes they are rubbish,... Continue Reading →

8 days to go!!

After my post last night I felt quite strong, I had laid it all out and felt positive I could get through it no matter the outcome. Then I wake up.... I try call him around 10am and no answer so instantly I feel shit again. I want to send him a message just going... Continue Reading →

9 days to GOOO!!

It's after midnight so i could technically say 8 even, although I'm pretty sure she won't be coming early. With scan bringing me forward anyway by 4 days and well just my luck really to end up going over and have to be induced. 23rd September is my date for that joyous event, so any... Continue Reading →

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