A woman who got lost whilst in love. My story of dealing with domestic abuse and the aftermath.
.. And I can see that now. That addiction is in the form of a man. A man who has treated me so so badly yet I cannot for the life of me seem to break the cycle. I love him. I love him too much. My last post showed some strength. He went to... Continue Reading →
I woke up yesterday with a sickness bug. I hate being sick. I hate it even more when I have no one around me to take care of me. It made me feel emotional, I couldn't believe it was now entering the fourth day without contact with the ex. How was he feeling?! Does he... Continue Reading →
The question on all my friends and families lips right now... how do you answer such a question when each hour my feelings change so much ? I feel weak, then remind myself what he's put me through and realise weak I am definitely not. My world was falling apart when my baby was just... Continue Reading →
Woke up at my friends house and felt quite strong. I think it surprised her and we spoke about it. I agreed that him not having anyone made it easier but equally I've learnt from the last time! I went home about midday and I was greeted by the vile character again. Moaning how I... Continue Reading →
Not blogged in a while, but that doesn't mean nothing has happened. I've had many more failed diet attempts and quite a few more rows in my relationship. Today life has gone semi back to normal after the Christmas and New Year hype and it's about time I combatted this weight properly and for good! ... Continue Reading →
I I really need my confidence back, I need my body back. This picture shows how much confidence I did have. I did well for a week and then I kind of went off plan. I'm about to go serious now though .. 20 days until my birthday and my first proper night out! If I haven't... Continue Reading →
Diet!! Meh !!! Food!! Meh !!! Still chunky !!!!!! Meh!! My last post I promised 40 days well yeh that didn't happen! I then put on instagram 21 days (till a night out) and that hasn't happened. So now I'm nearly day 1 down of it actually happening .. No Junk Food, No Wheat, No... Continue Reading →
So there's 40 days left of this year and after doing so well with my diet I then went way off the rails over my birthday weekend. My weight loss stood at 2 stone 3 lbs, weighing in at 14 stone 2. Exactly 2 stone heavier than I was this time last year. I'm not... Continue Reading →
Finally I've done it. I've made the cut off. I have to be honest I still hope for a life with him. What is wrong with me? But yes a good life ! No more talking can fix this now and yesterday I made the decision that I really well and truly can no longer... Continue Reading →
Baby woke me up as she needed feeding. Last night she woke every 2 hours but we both went back off straight away. It's 2:30am and I'm now wide awake. I'm starving! A banana will have to do. I've worked out that it's now been 4 weeks. 4 weeks on Friday of Dom telling me... Continue Reading →
Behind These Bluest Eyes 