Getting there .. 

Last night I couldn't believe the difference a week had made. I saw him yesterday but I stayed very strong. The week before I was still waiting on him to move heaven on earth for me after yet another cheating episode. Then when it got to the evening and I knew he went back to... Continue Reading →

A day without crying ? 

I woke up yesterday with a sickness bug. I hate being sick. I hate it even more when I have no one around me to take care of me. It made me feel emotional, I couldn't believe it was now entering the fourth day without contact with the ex. How was he feeling?! Does he... Continue Reading →

How am I feeling? 

The question on all my friends and families lips right now... how do you answer such a question when each hour my feelings change so much ? I feel weak, then remind myself what he's put me through and realise weak I am definitely not. My world was falling apart when my baby was just... Continue Reading →

I was desperate

So many emotions , so little calories consumed and many tears. He did come home after day 6, denying he was at the girls house. He came in at 2am, I stuck to my word and did not succumb to his sorrys and pleas. I would not fall for it again and have sex with... Continue Reading →

Day 5

Woke up at my friends house and felt quite strong. I think it surprised her and we spoke about it. I agreed that him not having anyone made it easier but equally I've learnt from the last time!  I went home about midday and I was greeted by the vile character again. Moaning how I... Continue Reading →

A social media rant 

Snapchat and Instagram, social media sites that when used properly can be fun, light-hearted and enjoyable but once again this evening the cousin has made my blood boil. This time on snapchat, man is doing videos of his cash saying 'look at all his money'... It probs looks about £300. £400 tops!! Does he not... Continue Reading →

1 Saturday down , 5 to go ..

.. Until I am able to go out and party!! I have my little girl tonight anyway so wouldn't have gone out tonight but tomorrow could have been a possibility. Craving a good night out so bad!! 1,818 calories today, had a Chinese with my mini me but counted it correctly. I didn't snack at all... Continue Reading →

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