How am I feeling? 

The question on all my friends and families lips right now... how do you answer such a question when each hour my feelings change so much ? I feel weak, then remind myself what he's put me through and realise weak I am definitely not. My world was falling apart when my baby was just... Continue Reading →

I was desperate

So many emotions , so little calories consumed and many tears. He did come home after day 6, denying he was at the girls house. He came in at 2am, I stuck to my word and did not succumb to his sorrys and pleas. I would not fall for it again and have sex with... Continue Reading →

Day 5

Woke up at my friends house and felt quite strong. I think it surprised her and we spoke about it. I agreed that him not having anyone made it easier but equally I've learnt from the last time!  I went home about midday and I was greeted by the vile character again. Moaning how I... Continue Reading →

Day 4

The first day I went over on my calories... I still ate less than 1500 but my exercise wasn't great and so I didn't have enough in the bank. I am already feeling slimmer though so this is fabulous!  Ex came to see me today, oh how sorry he is, how he can't lose me,... Continue Reading →

Day 3

I was a bit drunk to write this before I went to bed. I skipped dinner and went for the wine instead. 852 calories consumed in total and 7,151 steps. Amazing what stress and anxiety has done for my diet!  So my gut was correct. The last 2 weeks he was cheating on me again!!... Continue Reading →

Diet time! 

I I really need my confidence back, I need my body back. This picture shows how much confidence I did have. I did well for a week and then I kind of went off plan. I'm about to go serious now though ..  20 days until my birthday and my first proper night out! If I haven't... Continue Reading →

Ready for day 3

Ok day 1 went , soup, chicken and fruit! Then day 2 was fruit, meal replacement and a jacket potato. I did have a sweetie lolly and a Dr Pepper too tho 🙈!  We had a Halloween get together at my friends house. It was nice to have Dom there, I'm still feeling a little... Continue Reading →

So lucky … 

I went to bed last night at 10pm so this post had to wait until this morning. I woke up yesterday still thinking about it, of course I will. He's been in my life far too long and we've been through far too much to give up. I went over old blog posts and his... Continue Reading →

Tiny steps ..

After a lazy morning just blogging, merging my two blogs and reading over the old posts I've made I totally feel like Dominic should read them. Especially the ones of when he was inside. He could see how I was always saying 'he was the one' , how in love I was, how at times... Continue Reading →

Baby had her first bottle 🍼

It hasn't been an easy decision and I did ignore the health visitors advice for a week. The breastfeeding gurus on Monday told me to just feed more but realistically with this current set up it's pretty impossible. I don't have the support a woman needs who wants to exclusively breastfeed, I still get pain... Continue Reading →

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