Category: weightloss

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Day 1

Posted on by KerryLouise

Not blogged in a while, but that doesn’t mean nothing has happened. I’ve had many more failed diet attempts and quite a few more rows in my relationship. Today life has gone semi back to normal after the Christmas and New Year hype and it’s about time I combatted this weight properly and for good! 

I need the old me back! Yes the Mr is a crazy irractic arse but my insecurities do not help! 


Dec 2015 compared to Dec 2016 – What a difference! 

I will weigh myself tomorrow and this time I will stick with it! I just have too.

Crazy behaviour from other half occurred earlier when I wanted to go to the shop. He commented how I need to take the children as he’s going out, then said don’t take out baby as she has a cold. So once I questioned what he expected me to do,he did realise his stupidity but the attitude is just insane. He also got mad when a bottle he was using was leaking, he didn’t enjoy me explaining which head went on each bottle but I managed to not rise to his irrational behaviour and we got through the day without any real arguments. 

Sadly I believe once I get back my confidence I will find the strength to leave and to leave properly. Certainly not due to lack of love but how Jekyll and Hyde he is. Oh and let’s not forget what he actually did to me when pregnant 😢

Calories consumed: 1285                        Steps: 4370                                                           Mood: Fair but motivated 

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Diet time! 

Posted on by KerryLouise

I I really need my confidence back, I need my body back. This picture shows how much confidence I did have. I did well for a week and then I kind of went off plan. I’m about to go serious now though .. 

20 days until my birthday and my first proper night out! If I haven’t lost a stone I won’t be happy! 

Thursday night we saw Dom, he was actually on time but acting off and cold. That act drives me mad. He accused me of taking his phone. I ain’t interested in his phone .. then he gets mad when I get mad regarding the accusations. He then goes off on one saying ‘I don’t want her and right now I don’t want you’ .. I break him down before he goes though. He cries before he leaves and he jokes about how I’m not allowed to talk to anyone or date anyone 🙄

Friday we had a really great day. I made the effort to not mention ‘us’ , I was so annoyed with myself the night before for doing so. He bought it up first saying how much he loves us both, how he doesn’t want anyone else. It was flirty, it was fun. This is the Dominic that makes me insanely happy. 

Since then we haven’t argued but he has been too busy to see us. I haven’t reacted YET but it has reminded me of his lifestyle and how even without the cheating thing he wound me up and hurt me. All this stuff that was meant to stop when baby was here clearly hasn’t and is not about too. This stuff wasn’t about ‘revenge’ this is just him! If he was still living with me it wouldn’t be as bad but he needs to watch it because yes I love him but showing me this side still won’t keep me wanting him. Why do we always want men who keep us on our toes ? If it was easy I would get bored .. guaranteed! What a mess! 

Anyway .. today is Sunday. Weird day to start a diet but another day off plan could put more weight on! I have meal replacements and I know this works! It works so well, done it many times before! 

On this 💪🏼

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I’ve been so rubbish ..

Posted on by KerryLouise

Diet!! Meh !!! 

Food!! Meh !!!

Still chunky !!!!!! Meh!! 

My last post I promised 40 days well yeh that didn’t happen! I then put on instagram 21 days (till a night out) and that hasn’t happened. So now I’m nearly day 1 down of it actually happening .. 

No Junk Food, No Wheat, No Sugar ! No gluten free substitutes either!

I really do need to crack on with this now or come January 1st I’m going to find myself looking worse than I did a month ago! 

I’m taking my start weight as 14 stone 2, 2 stone heavier than my pre pregnancy weight. OH is getting tired of hearing me say ‘diet starts tomorrow’ and to be honest SO AM I! 

Things are good in my relationship but I know with me feeling better about myself it could still be better. I’m still feeling vulnerable, my mind still works overtime at times and although he still calls me beautiful and our sex life is good I know deep down he would love to see me comfortable in my own skin again! 

I cannot believe my baby is 11 weeks today and wow what an 11 weeks! She also slept from 9:30pm – 8am last night , such a good little girl ! 

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Day 1/40

Posted on by KerryLouise

So there’s 40 days left of this year and after doing so well with my diet I then went way off the rails over my birthday weekend. My weight loss stood at 2 stone 3 lbs, weighing in at 14 stone 2. Exactly 2 stone heavier than I was this time last year. I’m not weighing myself now until Christmas Eve!! 

I haven’t updated my blog in a while and I do need to fill in the gaps. All that needs to be said now is .. my man is back home. He’s back to being amazing, and loving. The man I know he can be. I see him with our daughter and my heart bursts with love. I actually don’t know how I got through 4 weeks of knowing he was with someone else!! Crazy!! 

I’m feeling crappy today. My first period in 11 months is proving to be hellish and I’m feeling a little run down. I would love to just eat rubbish but it’s just a vicious circle. Dominic is out playing pool and knowing I’m feeling crappy he text me saying ‘hope you’re feeling ok’, crazy to think that 5 weeks ago he didn’t seem to even think about me. Although he has later admitted that was never the case.

Baby Ariana is gorgeous! Trying tonight to get her into more of a routine since I’m not breastfeeding as much anymore. I can hear her talking to herself in her crib but she’s there and she’s been there since 8:30pm. Hoping to have mastered that by New Year and also my 8 year old ! Far too many late nights for her! 

Breakfast: Granola and milk (was meant to use almond milk but was in auto pilot)

Lunch: chicken drumsticks

Dinner: rice and lamb curry leftover from what Dom made last night 

Snacks: Banana, apple, cereal bar, olives

Drinks: Detox tea (must drink more water) 

Exercise: None

Cigarettes: 2!!! (Bad) 

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Ready for day 3

Posted on by KerryLouise

Ok day 1 went , soup, chicken and fruit! Then day 2 was fruit, meal replacement and a jacket potato. I did have a sweetie lolly and a Dr Pepper too tho 🙈! 

We had a Halloween get together at my friends house. It was nice to have Dom there, I’m still feeling a little dubious this morning though. 

Sunday he called me late on after I had been trying him all day. I didn’t send abuse, although I did have a message ready if needed. He straight away was like ‘babe don’t go mad’ and basically had thought he had lost his phone but his friend had it. He came to see us in the evening and straight away is warm, friendly and just acting like we’re in love. He stays until nearly 2am. Tells me he’s coming back first thing as not at work … I know that doesn’t happen but for some reason I’m a lot calmer with him and it’s working. 

He’s comes around 2pm after I woke him at 12:30 and even answered the phone calling me his sugar dumpling. I mean what name is that … ha but trust me it’s a lot nicer than some of the things he’s called me. 

She’s still ringing him though and realistically I don’t actually know what he’s saying to her. She has shared some interesting quotes on Facebook though which indicates she’s hurting. Well more fool her she knew what she was getting in to. 

He said last night he’s gonna move back new year , fresh start and all that. I understand how he’s reluctant in bringing his clothes here again and he also thinks not rushing back into anything is the way forward. I somewhat agree. If she wasn’t on the scene I would be totally ok with it but I’m constantly thinking oh he’s with her… which is bound to be the case ey. 

I’m seeing him later and I do need to be firmer, stronger and wiser !! 

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So lucky … 

Posted on by KerryLouise

I went to bed last night at 10pm so this post had to wait until this morning. I woke up yesterday still thinking about it, of course I will. He’s been in my life far too long and we’ve been through far too much to give up. I went over old blog posts and his letters again, a reminder of how bad I had it when he first went. I couldn’t help but cry. 

Today was meant to be the last day with my car. I’ve had my car for 2 years now and I was originally completely ok about having to get the bus for a while. It finally hit me today … ‘I can’t not have a car.’ I was feeling super anxious about it, I need my independence especially with the current set up! After looking online at second hand cars, it worked out the better option to buy the car from the lease company. I feel so lucky I have had that support from my mum and step dad. It really picked up my mood and I was so happy to still have my car. 

I called Dominic to tell him. He was happy for me too, he said how he walked past mine earlier and so wished I was in. The conversation saw him call me amazing and again tell me how much he loves me. Letting him realise on his own that the grass isn’t greener is working better and sooner than I thought. It probably makes absolutely no sense to anyone but I know what I’m doing.

I weighed myself, only a pound and a half weight loss. What rubbish ! My nan even commented about how slim I was getting and joked about how she wished she could disappear like I am lol but the scales didn’t show this! I then had a bad day, pasta, white bread, sweets and chocolate! 

New day today ! 💪🏼

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A social media rant 

Posted on by KerryLouise

Snapchat and Instagram, social media sites that when used properly can be fun, light-hearted and enjoyable but once again this evening the cousin has made my blood boil. This time on snapchat, man is doing videos of his cash saying ‘look at all his money’… It probs looks about £300. £400 tops!! Does he not realise in the grand scheme of things that isn’t a great deal?! Like if I didn’t have a mortgage to pay and a flat to run I would be laughing. It’s called being an adult! Having bills to pay and a flat I can call mine is far more important than having a few quid in my pocket. Last I heard he worked at KFC but with no responsibilities (as he doesn’t pay for his kids) I can see why he got a little excited over some paper. Jeez. The man is so stupid. Well I say man, nothing grown up about that boy. I know what he’s doing too, making out like its ‘trap money’, the silly little boy couldn’t run a vegetable patch let alone trap on the streets like life is some rap song. I need him as far away from my man as possible. Embarrassing. Time I removed him! 

Today I worked for a GPS sports watch brand, and now I need one in my life. If I get accepted into the marathon I Defo need to purchase one. At about £140 though they are not cheap but I see it as an investment and as I was once spending that on a PT per month this is well worth it. 

1767 calories today, no run but I did walk over 11,000 steps at work so I have been active. No studying tonight, too tired. There’s still time yet though, maybe something relatively straight forward like Occupiers liability. Must keep up the momentum! 

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1 Saturday down , 5 to go ..

Posted on by KerryLouise

.. Until I am able to go out and party!! I have my little girl tonight anyway so wouldn’t have gone out tonight but tomorrow could have been a possibility. Craving a good night out so bad!! 

1,818 calories today, had a Chinese with my mini me but counted it correctly. I didn’t snack at all today and that makes such a big difference in your calories, they soon add up. I was under on the fat and sugars content too. I didn’t manage to go for that run this morning, woke up feeling so groggy as I have been doing for a while now. More water, more water a must and back drinking my herbal teas I once got into a good routine with. 

I bought a new cream today and at nearly £10 (and that was half price) it wasn’t cheap. Nip + fab tummy fix it’s called, the reviews look good and after I stood in my underwear in front of the mirror at the sunbed shop I realised how bad the tummy situation is. I took a photo, not brave enough to upload yet but I will do if I get a good picture in a month or so to compare it. Will let you know if it works. I know it’s pretty natural to have stretch marks and excess skin after a pregnancy and especially for someone like me who has lost over 6 stone but to me it just looks weird. Not natural at all. I did get into a good shape last year and it began to look better but I was having a personal trainer then, I am hoping I can do it again without one. 

It’s 1:40am, I did my usual of having a late evening kip to study more effectively. It works yet my body clock is all over the place. Proud of what I have achieved tonight tho. Tomorrow I am working again, cinema date with my daughter then I will pick a different topic to get my teeth into. I’ve got this!!

65 days till Ibiza !! 

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So it’s May .. 

Posted on by KerryLouise

The fifth month of the year… I just need to get to the twelfth month and this empty lonely feeling will have gone. 

This time last year I knew he was going, I knew my life was about to change. I need to feel comfort in the fact that it’s now all in the past and the time is ticking and it will end! 

Now let’s get through May! 

May challenges: 

lose 5lbs 

Study at least 1 hour a day , 3 hours on days I’m not working 

No more wasting calories on junk food 

Run 100k (using Nike plus) 

Been to the cinema tonight, been home over an hour and I have just laid in bed wasting time, as per! Revision timetable is going to be planned now and then more Human Rights revision. 

1,845 calories consumed and I was slightly over on fat and sugars but that’s ok. I didn’t eat any ‘junk’ which is my collective word in May for chocolate, crisps, sweets and your obvious crap that most of us consume daily. I think the sugar was high in my diet today due to the smoothie I had which was yummy! So whatevs.

I ran 4k in 23 mins 37 seconds this morning, my plan is for tomorrow an early morning run at the gym and complete the 6.4k the nikeplus app is telling me to do. 

May I’m ready …. Kinda! 

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Foooooood!!!

Posted on by KerryLouise

so 2,500 calories consumed, with a 40 minute continuous run (which I am proud of) and about a 1/4 of the day studying the Human Rights Act! I am getting there, kinda, slowly! Far more calories than I would have liked and most of the extras was sugar that I just do not need in my diet. All my running is making me loads more hungry plus I’m due on next week so this week is the devil week for wanting allll the food. Other girls can relate right?! 

My run is a positive defo, some inconsistencies with the distance, the treadmill and my app both said different but meet in the middle and it was about 6k and I didn’t stop once! Woo! 

Studying, I did well earlier but this evening has been the same routine of wasting time. An hour phone conversation with my sister and what’sapp pinging me with my friends telling me of their dramas. The friend I’ve spoke of previously who also has a man in jail and had been seeing someone else received a letter from him today. He ended it! In a letter!! Like what?! Now I know I do not know the ins and outs but that seems so harsh, especially considering she felt she couldn’t end it whilst he’s banged up in there. Their story is completely different to ours she was his co-defendant, they been together 5 years, split up, had different partners then got back together last year whilst he was inside. She then seemed to me like they were madly in love if anything more so than me at times, and now it’s all over. We were getting through this journey together with the same release dates and now I’ve lost her but hey. I can do this. On my own.