Finally I've done it. I've made the cut off. I have to be honest I still hope for a life with him. What is wrong with me? But yes a good life ! No more talking can fix this now and yesterday I made the decision that I really well and truly can no longer... Continue Reading →
Ready for day 3
Ok day 1 went , soup, chicken and fruit! Then day 2 was fruit, meal replacement and a jacket potato. I did have a sweetie lolly and a Dr Pepper too tho 🙈! We had a Halloween get together at my friends house. It was nice to have Dom there, I'm still feeling a little... Continue Reading →
Baby had her first bottle 🍼
It hasn't been an easy decision and I did ignore the health visitors advice for a week. The breastfeeding gurus on Monday told me to just feed more but realistically with this current set up it's pretty impossible. I don't have the support a woman needs who wants to exclusively breastfeed, I still get pain... Continue Reading →
Baby’s first hospital trip
It's pretty scary for mother to see blood in your baby's sick as you can imagine ! I first called NHS direct at 3:45 am on Monday morning. What a surprise Dominic wasn't contactable. We went for lunch on Sunday as planned and we ended up being together for like 8 hours. It's one thing... Continue Reading →
With a new day comes new strength and new thoughts ..
Saturday morning and I woke up feeling sad. Baby just 3 weeks old and her daddy isn't around. I felt like I just wanted to him home, I wanted him there to have family time in our bed. Enjoy our new baby together. I felt just shit. On Friday he told me he wanted to... Continue Reading →
A new start ?
I failed in waiting for him to call, Sunday blues came and the sadness took over me. I couldn't understand how someone who was so involved in my life can literally walk away without a second thought. He responded to my text by saying I had told him not to call me but he would... Continue Reading →
A social media rant
Snapchat and Instagram, social media sites that when used properly can be fun, light-hearted and enjoyable but once again this evening the cousin has made my blood boil. This time on snapchat, man is doing videos of his cash saying 'look at all his money'... It probs looks about £300. £400 tops!! Does he not... Continue Reading →
1 Saturday down , 5 to go ..
.. Until I am able to go out and party!! I have my little girl tonight anyway so wouldn't have gone out tonight but tomorrow could have been a possibility. Craving a good night out so bad!! 1,818 calories today, had a Chinese with my mini me but counted it correctly. I didn't snack at all... Continue Reading →
Just over half way as a prison wife ..
I was fooling myself with the doubts. I couldn't leave him. I see his face and I melt. I see how his eyes go when he hears my words about the doubts I have. It would break him. He is so in love with me and that's enough. We kiss and I need more. I... Continue Reading →
Positive mind..
I feel much happier today, far more positive regarding uni. Exams are so close and yesterday I was questioning whether it's actually something I am even capable of. Of course it is! What a silly thought!!Well my weekend... Hmmm... Well!! I worked all day Saturday then did a hostessing shift early evening. That ended and... Continue Reading →
Behind These Bluest Eyes 